Back to My Future

You may remember my telling you about an adventure I had with Ivy, when we both started displaying our work for sale at the Scottish Design Exchange.  Well, after a successful initial 4 weeks, as part of the WHALE-Pod stand, it was time to retreat to think about plans ahead.

Being at SDE had been such a ‘buzz’ and working with Ivy was great fun!  I learned a lot about displaying products, labelling, managing stock, pricing, using tools to sell and up-sell, featuring products and makers, and so much more that the list would go on and on.

Everyone at SDE was so supportive and encouraging that worries and fears I had at the start of the adventure soon settled, and I found myself quite hopeful and actually enjoying myself.  I was inspired greatly by Ivy and the other artists and designers who have their works for sale there.

When this all started, both myself and Ivy had worries:”what if no one likes my stuff?”  This, of course, leads on to “what if I don’t sell anything?”  then worse still “WHAT IF I FAIL?”   But,  as in all the great fairy tales, people DID like our stuff, people DID buy some of our things and actually when you look at the whole experience (including selling products and all the learning) we DID SUCCEED!

Four weeks flew by and the worries turned into …well, whatever the opposite of worry is. This was greatly helped along by endless cups of tea and slices of cake.(both of which I highly recommend – maybe I should be blogging about cake???) Oh dear, I am so easily distracted … where was I?

Oh yes, weeks were flying by – and soon it was time for me to leave the safety of SDE and take stock of everything, whilst trying to figure out my next bold step.  I retreated to the safety of my little craft room and considered the experience and also thought about how I could move forward with at least one of the many ideas I have floating about in my head.

” How can I make something REAL from all this?”

Over the next 2-3 weeks the ‘many ideas’ started to take shape and became actual considerations.  I was keeping myself very busy, but all the while the strangest thing was happening . . .  Things were occurring.  People kept on distracting me from my pondering and plan-making.

I was considering teaching sewing, which I thought would help fill in quiet spells, whilst I waited for the opportunities to sell things that I made. I had been developing ideas for tutorials and workshops I could try out.  As I made my plans, I dealt with those ‘distracting issues’ as they arose and  settled back into my hectic days of considerations, formulations and all the other ‘-ations’.

I had been wondering about how to start with the teaching ideas and working out how well doing this would sit alongside developing and making products to sell. How would I find people who want to learn?  How can I continue to sell products?  How can I find out if anyone is even interested in what I am doing???????

WAIT A MINUTE . . . I’ve been getting calls and messages!  All those little distractions . . . (I can tell you just raced ahead of me).  YES!!! the distractions were people who were calling to make purchases, or messages from people who had been to SDE and found I was no longer there!!!

Eureka . . people ARE interested!!

Had I stepped away from SDE too soon?  I was so busy looking for a future for myself that I had failed to recognise that perhaps that very future had already started to ‘come to life’.  All of this was coming from the little seed planted at the stand Ivy and I had with WHALE-pod at the Scottish Design Exchange.

Could I really dare to be brave and ask if I could return?  Would there really be a chance for me to turn all the negative things that have happened over the years into a positive?

First, I have to sort my finances out .. a few calls and I had appointments!  I know that is the easy part, but at least I had taken a few more steps.  Next . . . Ivy.  I had to call Ivy and see what she thought.  Would she consider us collaborating again at SDE?  Her delight on the phone when I called to ask was the biggest relief.  A really joyful moment . . . I was not alone.  We had almost got ‘the Team’ back together.  Finally, the moment was here.

My courage simply deserted me.  How do I ask SDE if I can return?  What if they had simply been polite and had, in fact, been glad I left?  WHAT IF THEY DON’T WANT ME TO COME BACK?

There was one last distraction.  A lovely lady who had been to SDE to buy a thread catcher.  She contacted me via Facebook.  – luckily I had recently joined the rest of the known-world as a Facebooker (is that even a word?)

Well, this was ‘the sign’.  Sometimes I need ‘a sign’.  Something or someone that gives me that little push, just at the right moment.  “Dare to be brave” I told myself.  I opened up the email that had been sitting in the ‘drafts folder’ for 2 days.  Before I could stop myself, I had clicked SEND!  Of course, they would need time to think about it  and well, it was Saturday and I didn’t really expect a reply until the beginning of the week.

OMG there it was,  that funny little noise my phone makes when there is an email.  Less than 2 hours and they had replied.  One deep breath later and I was peeping worriedly at the email . . .  it said lots of lovely things, there were even smiley faces, but best of all it ended with “Looking forward to having you back”.  If it is possible to burst with happiness, then that is exactly what I did.  It’s time for me to be brave and go back . . .

Back to MY Future!

I am going to allow myself one final worry .. well it’s more of a question really.  Will I need a DeLorean?

DeLorean